This web site has been some of the hardest work I’ve done over the past few months, but it’s been a complete pleasure. My girlfriend always asks me why I “waste so much time” with it, and I always tell her the same thing, which is that it gives me a feeling of satisfaction. I’ve never “built” anything before.
My dad was always working as I grew up. That’s not so much a cry for whatever, as it is a statement of fact. My dad was a hard working son of a bitch. The guy is getting to be in his 60’s and he still works well over 14 hours a day. He has the kind of work ethic that my generation could only dream of. Aside from all that, I never had a father who taught me how to build a tree house, or let me help build a deck or whatever. The only real building I’ve done is as a writer and film maker, and that isn’t quite as satisfying, because your degree of control over the finished product is minimal. Sure I have last say on my script, but I’d be lucky to sell something, yet alone get any say in how Hollywood goes about butchering my work.
This web site, is pretty much the one place where I don’t have to answer to anybody. I can afford to run it whether anyone reads it or not, and I know that there’s at least a few dozen people who do, and hopefully that number will start growing. In fact, I’d say the website has upped my productivity in just about every aspect of my life. I’m working harder at work, getting more writing done at home, and actually feel motivated to do more. Maybe it’s just having an audience (no matter how small) that gives me the will power to start accomplishing, instead of just drifting in to the couch with my Game Boy burning into my eyes.
Of course, the new season of TV starts in a few weeks, so maybe that’ll take the wind out of my sails.